Tuesday, March 24, 2009

This is me whining....again.

I have nothing cute or sarcastic to say. I'm kind of in a downer mood. The Dude is in Houston on a last minute business trip. The kids are upset because they don't remember him coming in and kissing them before he left. I feel am fat.
I don't say that looking for someone to say, "no you're not!" thanks anyway Dude . I have mirrors folks. I can see it. I also have a scale that tells me I'm losing this battle despite my efforts. I really am making an effort! I've cut my portions in half (at least). I only drink the occasional Coke (for you non-southerners, that is any carbonated beverage). I'm moving more, hell, my 30 minute break at work is now occupied by the treadmill or exercise bike. Yet still, I gain.
Something is amiss. I'm extremely tired despite the fact that I'm getting more sleep these days. My muscles ache all the time. Every morning I feel like I've been hit by a bus. My joints ache too, which is odd and new.
This is just depressing. My sister in law's wedding is in a few weeks and I DO NOT want to be in any of the family pictures looking this way.
I have a family party to attend this summer. I'm looking forward to it, but then again, not so much. I was always the chunky one in my family, but this will be the very first time that I am actually ashamed to show my family what I have let myself become.
Meh. I'm whining. Sorry this is such a downer post. You know what would cheer me up and always does? Baking. But that would only make my waistline grow even more.


TuTu's Bliss said...

I felt like this for so long that I thought it was normal until I came across a wonderful doctor who discovered that I am hypothyroid. Once I was on medicine I couldn't believe the difference. I told my Sis to have hers checked, LOOOOONG STORY...they did but kept dismissing her because they were not doing a COMPLETE thyroid work up (instead they prescribed excercise, antidepressants and even a hysterectomy to no avail)..finally they discovered a lump on her thyroid and she had to have half of it removed. If you know something is wrong with you don't settle until you find a doctor willing to listen and work with you.

Roxane said...

I'm so sorry you feel down on yourself :( I wish there was something I could do to cheer you up. I have no real advice but I do hope you feel good soon!

noble pig said...

If you have truly cut food intake, you might very well have thyroid issues. It's a simple blood test and worth the effort. Your condition would be highly improved with medication.

If it's not thyroid, calorie counting is the best diet method...I think. I hope you find out what's up.

Snarky A. said...

I second TuTu's comment. If you feel something is wrong, pursue it until you find an answer.

The Rambler said...

I'm with Tutu.

I need to get a thyroid check per my doctor.

I'm just scared he'll tell me...

Um, Mrs. Rambler. Your just big boned. Sorry.

But seriously, go with what Tutu mentioned. (Smart lady that one I tell you)

And are you kidding. I'm the 'big' girlfriend in my pack of skinny minnies and I'm always hiding in the back of our photos.

My sis does this Friday Fitness thing. Maybe you should join her?


P.S. Going on Vacation in May and wondered if you would do a baking Post for me. I absolutely love your recipe posts.

Email me or let me know if your interested?

xoxo again.